The Spiral Down

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 00:53:47 GMT

Top 5 Bands of all time:
1. Tool & A Perfect Circle(tie)
2. The Who
3. The Cranberries
4. Pink Floyd
5. Sublime

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 17:28:07 GMT

Okay, everyone who reads this please put a post on how you think I am and how I could improve upon myself. Im not saying im going to change(because im not), I am just curiously intrigued. So please if you all wouldnt mind, write a reply.

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 17:25:43 GMT

Your ring is not the wisest,
but your tune seems possessed by slyness,
you have me fixed in a sadness,
but with it comes a comforting madness,
so take everything special to me,
dump it over board into the sea,
I promise I'll start over with you,
as long as you promise to love me too,
killing my sanity I retire to your embrace,
hello madness erase normality without a trace.

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 22:51:09 GMT

hmm....lets see how many love points everyone has on my scale right now, shall we?

Marcus:7
Ryan:8
Miguel:7
Nathan:9(since i miss you so damn much you bastard)
Tyler:9
John:8
Greg:5
Scott:1
Crocker:7
all you other bitches i dont feel like writing about...this is just me and my peeps...excluding 2

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 21:26:31 GMT

Ænema

Some say the end is near.
Some say we'll see armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will.
I sure could use a vacation from this

Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of
Freaks

Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call LA
The only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
Any fucking time. Any fucking day.
Learn to swim, I'll see you down in Arizona bay.

Fret for your figure and
Fret for your latte and
Fret for your hairpiece and
Fret for your lawsuit and
Fret for your prozac and
Fret for your pilot and
Fret for your contract and
Fret for your car.

It's a
Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of
Freaks

Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call LA
The only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
Any fucking time. Any fucking day.
Learn to swim, I'll see you down in Arizona bay.

Some say a comet will fall from the sky.
Followed by meteor showers and tidal waves.
Followed by faultlines that cannot sit still.
Followed by millions of dumbfounded dipshits.

Some say the end is near.
Some say we'll see armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will cuz
I sure could use a vacation from this

Silly shit, stupid shit...

One great big festering neon distraction,
I've a suggestion to keep you all occupied.

Learn to swim.

Mom's gonna fix it all soon.
Mom's comin' round to put it back the way it ought to be.

Learn to swim.

Fuck L Ron Hubbard and
Fuck all his clones.
Fuck all those gun-toting
Hip gangster wannabes.

Learn to swim.

Fuck retro anything.
Fuck your tattoos.
Fuck all you junkies and
Fuck your short memory.

Learn to swim.

Fuck smiley glad-hands
With hidden agendas.
Fuck these dysfunctional,
Insecure actresses.

Learn to swim.

Cuz I'm praying for rain
And I'm praying for tidal waves
I wanna see the ground give way.
I wanna watch it all go down.
Mom please flush it all away.
I wanna watch it go right in and down.
I wanna watch it go right in.
Watch you flush it all away.

Time to bring it down again.
Don't just call me pessimist.
Try and read between the lines.

I can't imagine why you wouldn't
Welcome any change, my friend.

I wanna see it all come down.
suck it down.
flush it down.

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 03:23:16 GMT

Well I have to work at 8-4 tommorrow, damn. Well at least its in the backroom. I'll be at backstreets from 5 to close probably though so if any of you want to hang out thats where ill be.

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 02:46:40 GMT

Had some chilis today, hew yeah! Also saw the new Exorcist movie, it was really really good. Turned in the aplication for my promotion, and its a definite thing me getting it now, woohoo! On top of that dollar raise I found I get another fifty cent raise for my one year review and thats coming up in like a month and a half. So im looking at 1.50 more an hour. Well thats enough, gloating cause ill have to have a lot of new responcibilities but ill have more money for more trips around the world! Oh yeah.....and for school heheh.

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 04:11:13 GMT

Okay, I finally get a chance to sleep in my own bed and not have to wake up in the morning and im not tired dammit lol. I feel like something is missing right now, I don't feel depressed, just anxious and waiting for something to fulfill me for a while. I need a girl I can sleep next to lol, not have sex with, just someone I can sleep next to. Eh....well for now I will be content with reading some lovecraft and going to bed. Goodnight to all and to all a goodnight.

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 02:45:00 GMT

Okay, pommesdeterre and southernslut, who are you? I just checked my friends of list lately and u were there.....sorry if I do know you guys and I just dont know the lj names. Uhhhh if not, well I guess I dont really care.

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 01:57:40 GMT

compairing everyone i know to the elements..

Marcus:Electricity: hyper and spaztic, never settles down untill he blows a fuse.
Tyler:Wind: he floats along his merry little dark way happening from one woman's bed to another, often finding many homes.
Jonas:Void: always contemplating and quiet, not too much is known about his true self.
Nathan:Fire: Exploding in random outbursts of different emotions, very jovial and loves a good time.
Ryan:Water: Floats along peacefully and gently, till his feelings get dammed up enough and he rushes down in a torrent of rage or some other emotion when the dam breaks.
Miguel:Electricity: always shouting out random(and sometimes obscene) exclamations or gestures, almost never tired and always wired for creativity.
Will:Void: keeps to himself most of the time, dark and depressed attitude sometimes.
ahhh fuckit i dont feel like trying to do this to everyone i know lol

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 15:50:25 GMT

Well Jonas' party was kinda spoiled by Jordan and Lindsay coming over. Im not saying everythings their fault because it's not and it would be wrong to say that. But after that they were chased around the whole night by crocker and scott hoping to get some. Well crocker probably did lol. Im not pissed at him because he deserved something for letting us party at his house for the occassion which was really nice. Scott on the other hand, goddamn Scott. From wasting fucking hours in his garage playing shitty punk music(trying to start a band? i dont know) to him losing sight of it being Jonas' party. He even made friends with someone he hated not long before that person came over probably just anticipating he might get laid. All I have to say is Scott you need to start thinking more you stupid peice of shit. You were the one that came up with the idea of having a party for Jonas but you waited till the last minute to plan and I had to fucking find alcohol and a place to stay since we all know the peir would definetely not be a good idea.

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 22:21:16 GMT

I feel like eating some chinese food. Damnit im gonna learn how to make general Tso's chicken, fried pork wontons, and fried sweet and sower pork to add to my long list of culinary know-how.
On top of that I so hope we can find some place to have the party tonight, as much memories as the pier has I think Jonas deserves a party out of the rainy night and someone's house where its comfortable lol........(if only my damn mom would spend the night at her boyfriend's!)

El Hobbitro Esquire,
n-stuff..............

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 15:41:29 GMT

Dammit, I just realized that im way too emo. I shouldn't be this depressed and I no longer am. Sure there are things I wish could happen but they are out of my control. Hell im supposed to be agnostic for christsake, I am supposed to accept whatever happens or comes my way. Sure I have my heart set out for a certain outcome but I will have to accept that it might never happen. Well, Im gonna stop being such a damn emo kid and go back to my roots(agnostic realist). Hew yeah!!

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 04:34:29 GMT

God I feel like im going to throw up....I cant stop thinking about it. I wish things were different but I doubt I will ever get my way.

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 04:22:37 GMT

eh....i feel good...im gonna go to bed so i have the rest to put up with watching "beaches" tommorrow lol.

Blue eyes turned grey

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 16:25:28 GMT

Yeah, did a lot of thinking that wasnt necessary last night. Guess I shoulda drank more but I couldn't stomach it for some reason. Im tired of being depressed about people, I need to get a nice vacation(it will be here soon enough travis please dont go physcho!). Damn I need to get away from this town....as far as I can and right now im glad France is thousands of miles away.

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 02:52:05 GMT

alright damnit.....now you guys need to post a responce with your most memorable memory about me........dammit

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 02:57:02 GMT

Before you poke about me with a suture,
dont fuck us we've been out long before you've ever
heard my name or sold my soul to make a record,
dipshit man, you, art, now!!!
Well now I've got something to say to you little buddy,
before you point your finger you should know that im the man,
im the fucking man
and your the fucking man as well so you can point your fucking finger up your ass!

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 02:32:07 GMT

It feels really good to not have someone who you have to depend on to make you generate your feelings throughout the day. Viva La me.....n stuff.......

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 03:56:25 GMT

Well.....I feel left behind in the dust from everyone, it seems like everyone got out and had some sort of fun today. I need some killer dreams, about anything as long as its something. And will someone post a reply to anything on my lj? God damnit no one has in a while and im feeling left out you bastards......eh.

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 04:31:12 GMT

Eh I feel like sleeping in a pile of freshly washed blankets heh......I had a good time at backstreets. Nice live music playing tonight, hanging out with Ryan, Miguel and Jonas...and sorta with Tyler till he hooked up with Tina lol(still cant believe it). Tommorrow will be a great day as well, plan to bug tyler at work tommorrow till he closes then we'll meet up with Ryan and go fishing.

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 12:38:29 GMT

Hrmm........feel like listening to "eyes on me" or watching Escaflowne, or the entire Inuyasha series................one of those days, just one of those days..heh

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 15:50:25 GMT

I feel good again, in a clean but tired way. Thanks Ryan and Miguel you guys are kickass friends.....well I know your not as kickass as I am but I was just trying to boost you guys' confidence a little.....just kidin lol...

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 20:27:46 GMT

Ze cucci le Napoli.....
Ze cucci de Santelli.....
An su vica de Pinallo grioccio san matre.....
Ah mambo, mambo Italiano!
Ah mambo, mambo Italiono!
Oh Oh Oh, tu hecce sigiliano!
Oh Oh Oh, mambo Italiano!

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 02:38:05 GMT

I have decided to constantly be active to keep my mind off of things. For the next few weeks to a month or so im just going to: work almost everyday, sleep when im not, and very rarely hang out with friends....I need some time alone. I always want to be the quiet loner but it never works out, I need reaction with friends and people who care. Sometimes I want to be alone, but I never want to feel lonely.....its inevitable as it always is though lol.